Friday, December 28, 2007

The World, God and Me

The world puts on this huge façade
That mutes the truth and pushes out God
The world offers only a temporary happiness
Filled with hurt, pain and unforgiveness
And temptations that are just a short term glue for our hearts
That barely holds the shattered pieces that are torn apart
A glue that breaks down in the midst of our stress and brokenness
That dissolves because of our own selfishness
We barely look at the hurt of each other
And think they might need help from another
Destinies that are never fulfilled
Because we’re full of pride and so self-willed.

So contrary to the life that God has for us
A life where he picks us up and wipes off the dust
Where he offers more than a brief relief
And rescues us from our inescapable grief
A life of destiny that lasts for eternity
That surpasses the things set in front of me
He offers restoration, relation and realization
That he is the God of all creation
And he’s the same God of forgiveness and fullness
Who shows true selflessness and realness
A God who truly doesn’t need us
But wanted relationship so bad he sent Jesus
He’s the light that’s worth the fight
A fight that’s about faith and not about sight
He’s a God that’s so full of love
That he sent his one and only son from above

Meanwhile I’m stuck in between
From the seen and unseen
Between God and this world
Emotions mixed, switched and swirled
Between the fear of God and the enemy
Blinded to the plans God has for me
The pressures of this life
Even just choosing wrong from right
Barriers that God’s breaking down
Showing me areas I’m still bound
I was lost but now I’m found
But I feel like even that’s turning around
The struggle the fight
That keeps failing by my might to get it right
The sin I’ve been living in
Sin I thought I’d never touch again
How the desires from within
Need to be cleansed again and again
Trying to let go of everything I know
And turning over to God the control of the show

God you know my heart
And the reservations that are still locked in a dark part
You know my selfish desires
That have put out and stolen my fire
And you see outside of time and space and you see my face
Yet you’re still pouring your grace in such an empty space
And you’re probably laughing at my problems watching me try to solve them
Because you’re just waiting for me to give up so that you can have them
And Lord my one prayer and cry out to you
Is that you would give me the strength to make it through
Cuz I know I’m not guaranteed tomorrow
That this is just time you’re letting me borrow
And I want nothing but to give it back to you
So I can bring YOU glory in everything I do

-brandy-


Thursday, November 15, 2007

Arise O' Sleepers.. God's got something to tell us!

The picture definitely isn't very clear but this is how messy my paper gets when I write. The regular camera for whatever reason wouldn't download the better pictures I took so I had to use my cell phone to take these pictures. Anyways... God's been speaking to me by putting all his thoughts into a creative format. This definitely is not my talent..
Arise, Arise...
“Arise, O’ Rise and wake up with the sunrise
Arise, Arise and set your eyes on the prize
Put pride aside and all fleshly desires
Take on my strength so you can walk through the fire
Awake O’ Child and get ready to pray
Because I’ve got something that I want to say”

O’ Lord, right now I’m just too tired
I don’t even have the energy required
To listen or even hear your voice
Or to raise my hands and choose to rejoice
O’ Lord, I know I don’t have enough of you
To make it through the things you’re taking me through
But why wake so early and pray
When I can wait till later today

“O’ Wake up and call upon my spirit
Before you get busy and are unable to hear it
Your complacency comes straight from the enemy
Awake your soul and choose to choose me
Stop allowing yourself to listen to your flesh
Awake your soul and command my spirit to be blessed”

Lord, you’re teaching me things I thought I’d never ask of
You’re teaching me of a greater love that comes from only above
You’re saying “Come read my word and see if it stands its test”
You’re telling me to put you first and forget about the rest
But how do I put you first instead of my flesh
So that you become more and I become less

“This is the fight that you’re called to fight
When you choose Christ and choose to walk in the light
Your flesh and blood and worldly desires
Must die and choose to look to something higher
And these things you must do and say
If you’re going to walk and choose my way
It is by my strength and by my mighty powers
That the enemy is completely devoured
And if you don’t learn that personally in your life
You’ll always be let down by your own might
You’re not called to understand my will
You’re not called to act on how you feel
Now stand and learn to take action
Where for the Holy Spirit you’ll become an attraction

So awake and rise with the sunrise
Arise and focus your eyes on the prize
Put pride aside and all fleshly desires
Stand and choose to walk through the fire
Awake O’ Child and get ready to pray
And don’t ask questions because I’ve got something to say”
-brandy-

Saturday, November 10, 2007

You take one.. He'll take a thousand...


This is a picture of me standing before God saying "WHAT! NO! Don't take that!" And God's lookin' back at me like.. "It's about time you looked this way for a change" .... Ouch! However, God is good in all he does, and while I've been kicking and screaming since this season he is embarking me upon has started I've come to realize the only way I'm going to make it through all this is TRUE SURRENDER. For months and months I've been writing in my journals.. "Lord teach me to rely on only you and show me once again what true surrender is". God answers prayer... It's just not how we expect. He's creative enough to always surpise us! So therefore he's put me in a place where all I have is him to rely upon and the only way I can rely on him is through surrender. But it's okay because he brought me here.. He'll see me through it. I've already seen him be so faithful in all this regardless of how much of a "brat" I've been. I don't know how else to explain it! It's a bran new season so here's a bran new look for my blog.. I've just decided to start over.. I wrote this poem.. and I know it's long.. but the great thing is... You can stop reading this whenever you choose..
MY GOD, MY GOD
My God, My God, why can't I feel you here
I'm scared, I'm lost, I'm full of fear
My God, My God, why aren't you near
To catch my fall, to catch my tear
You say you're always here and that you'll never leave me
But I feel that you're so much farther than these eyes can see
These temptations, these desires, that just won't flee
How I want to break through, How I want to break free
My God, My God, where are you
I'm scared, I'm lost, I don't know what to do
My God, My God, show me that your promises are true
Hold fast and draw me back to the God I once knew
Please God show me your might,
show me your might so I can learn how to fight
Please God make my heart right,
make my heart right so I can walk in the light
My God, My God, I'm crying out
I'm scared, I'm lost, I'm full of doubt
My God, My God, why can't there be an easy way out
Is there another way, Is there another route
My God, My God, please listen to me
Hear my cry and every plea...
"My child, My child, fear not for I am here
I never moved, you were the one to disappear
My child, My child, I never left you
It was when you looked away that you didn't know what to do...
Now listen to me because it's my turn to speak
Without me you'll always be weak
You asked me to change your heart
But how do I begin when you won't let me start
My child, My child, I will never leave you
Now YOU hold fast and draw to me as you once knew
My child, My child, stand strong on my love
because this world will never give you something to be sure of
Now stand and go read my 66 book letter
Those are my words I wrote that will stand forever
And those words I wrote personally to you
Because I knew you would be scared, lost, and wouldn't know what to do
My child, My child, temptation doesn't flee from you
You flee from temptation and tell it what to do
My child, my child, it's time for you to learn to stand
For I will be right there to hold your hand
My child, My child when will you look above
Instead of falling back on those things you're so sure of
My child, My child, no one else can hold your hand except for me
But even I can't do that unless you reach out to me."
O Lord, My God, I fall on my face
In shame and guilt and such disgrace
My God, My God, I'm sorry for the way I treated you
Oh how could I doubt your promises to be true
My God, My God, please change my heart
Show ME where to end so YOU can start
My God, My God, I blinded my eyes so that I couldn't see
O Lord, My God, please, please forgive me
"My child, of course your sins have already been forgiven
Now turn the other way and change the way you've been living
My child, My child there isn't anything you can do
To change the immeasurable amount of love I have for you
My child, My child, you have been set free
Now go... and tell the other captives about me."
-brandy-