Arise O' Sleepers.. God's got something to tell us!

The picture definitely isn't very clear but this is how messy my paper gets when I write. The regular camera for whatever reason wouldn't download the better pictures I took so I had to use my cell phone to take these pictures. Anyways... God's been speaking to me by putting all his thoughts into a creative format. This definitely is not my talent..

Arise, Arise...

“Arise, O’ Rise and wake up with the sunrise
Arise, Arise and set your eyes on the prize
Put pride aside and all fleshly desires
Take on my strength so you can walk through the fire
Awake O’ Child and get ready to pray
Because I’ve got something that I want to say”

O’ Lord, right now I’m just too tired
I don’t even have the energy required
To listen or even hear your voice
Or to raise my hands and choose to rejoice
O’ Lord, I know I don’t have enough of you
To make it through the things you’re taking me through
But why wake so early and pray
When I can wait till later today

“O’ Wake up and call upon my spirit
Before you get busy and are unable to hear it
Your complacency comes straight from the enemy
Awake your soul and choose to choose me
Stop allowing yourself to listen to your flesh
Awake your soul and command my spirit to be blessed”

Lord, you’re teaching me things I thought I’d never ask of
You’re teaching me of a greater love that comes from only above
You’re saying “Come read my word and see if it stands its test”
You’re telling me to put you first and forget about the rest
But how do I put you first instead of my flesh
So that you become more and I become less

“This is the fight that you’re called to fight
When you choose Christ and choose to walk in the light
Your flesh and blood and worldly desires
Must die and choose to look to something higher
And these things you must do and say
If you’re going to walk and choose my way
It is by my strength and by my mighty powers
That the enemy is completely devoured
And if you don’t learn that personally in your life
You’ll always be let down by your own might
You’re not called to understand my will
You’re not called to act on how you feel
Now stand and learn to take action
Where for the Holy Spirit you’ll become an attraction

So awake and rise with the sunrise
Arise and focus your eyes on the prize
Put pride aside and all fleshly desires
Stand and choose to walk through the fire
Awake O’ Child and get ready to pray
And don’t ask questions because I’ve got something to say”

-brandy-

You take one.. He'll take a thousand...

This is a picture of me standing before God saying "WHAT! NO! Don't take that!" And God's lookin' back at me like.. "It's about time you looked this way for a change" .... Ouch! However, God is good in all he does, and while I've been kicking and screaming since this season he is embarking me upon has started I've come to realize the only way I'm going to make it through all this is TRUE SURRENDER. For months and months I've been writing in my journals.. "Lord teach me to rely on only you and show me once again what true surrender is". God answers prayer... It's just not how we expect. He's creative enough to always surpise us! So therefore he's put me in a place where all I have is him to rely upon and the only way I can rely on him is through surrender. But it's okay because he brought me here.. He'll see me through it. I've already seen him be so faithful in all this regardless of how much of a "brat" I've been. I don't know how else to explain it! It's a bran new season so here's a bran new look for my blog.. I've just decided to start over.. I wrote this poem.. and I know it's long.. but the great thing is... You can stop reading this whenever you choose..

MY GOD, MY GOD

My God, My God, why can't I feel you here

I'm scared, I'm lost, I'm full of fear

My God, My God, why aren't you near

To catch my fall, to catch my tear

You say you're always here and that you'll never leave me

But I feel that you're so much farther than these eyes can see

These temptations, these desires, that just won't flee

How I want to break through, How I want to break free

My God, My God, where are you

I'm scared, I'm lost, I don't know what to do

My God, My God, show me that your promises are true

Hold fast and draw me back to the God I once knew

Please God show me your might,

show me your might so I can learn how to fight

Please God make my heart right,

make my heart right so I can walk in the light

My God, My God, I'm crying out

I'm scared, I'm lost, I'm full of doubt

My God, My God, why can't there be an easy way out

Is there another way, Is there another route

My God, My God, please listen to me

Hear my cry and every plea...

"My child, My child, fear not for I am here

I never moved, you were the one to disappear

My child, My child, I never left you

It was when you looked away that you didn't know what to do...

Now listen to me because it's my turn to speak

Without me you'll always be weak

You asked me to change your heart

But how do I begin when you won't let me start

My child, My child, I will never leave you

Now YOU hold fast and draw to me as you once knew

My child, My child, stand strong on my love

because this world will never give you something to be sure of

Now stand and go read my 66 book letter

Those are my words I wrote that will stand forever

And those words I wrote personally to you

Because I knew you would be scared, lost, and wouldn't know what to do

My child, My child, temptation doesn't flee from you

You flee from temptation and tell it what to do

My child, my child, it's time for you to learn to stand

For I will be right there to hold your hand

My child, My child when will you look above

Instead of falling back on those things you're so sure of

My child, My child, no one else can hold your hand except for me

But even I can't do that unless you reach out to me."

O Lord, My God, I fall on my face

In shame and guilt and such disgrace

My God, My God, I'm sorry for the way I treated you

Oh how could I doubt your promises to be true

My God, My God, please change my heart

Show ME where to end so YOU can start

My God, My God, I blinded my eyes so that I couldn't see

O Lord, My God, please, please forgive me

"My child, of course your sins have already been forgiven

Now turn the other way and change the way you've been living

My child, My child there isn't anything you can do

To change the immeasurable amount of love I have for you

My child, My child, you have been set free

Now go... and tell the other captives about me."

-brandy-